I am a 42 year old lady who was diagnosed with AML in 2015. I had no symptoms, just tired but being a working mum, I thought that was normal. I underwent extensive chemotherapy and went into remission. I am now 4 years post diagnosis. However I live in constant fear that my cancer will return. I get tired – I think it’s coming back, I have a sore throat – I think it’s coming back – I am so scared that I am going to get sick again and I am miserable – this is not a life for me!! I want to be happy, “normal” and not have this constant fear and anxiety in my mind. I don’t know what to do. I have tried counselling but I felt guilty because there are other people out there way worse than me and I am just an annoyance taking up someones time. My doctor has said that I have to pay for private counselling but I got into huge debt when I was off working and am still trying to get that back on track also so cannot afford private counselling. Does anyone have any ideas on how I can cope with this struggle please.